I spent some time yesterday reflecting on what a precious gift this little girl has been in my life.
I was 18yrs Old when I got pregnant with Mikayla, I was in a very destructive, emotionally and sexually abusive and really just unhealthy relationship at the time. I was drinking a lot, not eating much and living in a caravan in Perth. I had told my family that I never wanted to see them again.
I will never forget finding out I was pregnant with Mikayla, I had discussed the fact that I had thought I was pregnant with my partner and it was decided if I was that a termination was the only option. I had no idea were to go and what to do and we had no money. I ended up going to the family planning clinic, they did a test which very quickly came up positive. I then discussed the options I had and was booked in for a termination. As I sat on the bus more and more it became clear to me that I could not go through with an abortion. Anyways I am rambling, long story short I made the decision to have this baby no matter what the cost. Through a series of circumstances I contacted my parents and told them I was pregnant. They took the news slightly better than I expected them to. I had been unwell so I decided to fly back to Melbourne to stay with my mum for a short period, just to get me through the first trimester.
Coming home is a huge story in itself that maybe I Will blog about another time.
While I was back in Melbourne I really started to reassess my life. I realised I could not bring a baby into the relationship I was in and that I needed to start making some tough decisions,. What does all this have to do with my baby girl I hear you thinking.
Well I made the decision to stay in Melbourne. I moved on with my life and I started to grow up. I had amazing family support but if it had not been for her, I am not sure where I would be today. Sometimes I feel like she saved my life.
Since the day she was born she has brought me so much joy. She makes me laugh and makes me cry. I am so immensely proud of this girl. She is smart and bright and happy and everyone seems to love her. Yes she has attitude but she is my daughter after all, what would you expect. She is the thing that changed me and turned my life around. I love her with all my heart.
Mikayla you are a beautiful princess who has been created so perfectly by God. I love you and I am so so so proud of you.
HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
2 comments:
Hope Mikayla had a great birthday! Great to read some of your story, children are such a blessing and really do change our lives in such a positive way! Lucky you have another blessing to pop out soon :-)
That is so awesome and touching laura! What an incredible story. You are a very strong and courageous lady to make the choices you did. You rock chicky xox
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