Old Posts

I have decided to post all my myspace blogs in case anyone wants to read them. They are quite old(over 12mths) but a bit of fun to look back at. Each blog is in a different colour. So enjoy and happy reading

Hey It's only 6:30 and I am blogging,

I have no idea what to write so I am afraid it will be something very boring

So Dad loaned us a Peter Gabriel DVD which is surprisingly cool. There Is a song on it called in your eyes....... ( Yes there is a song connection)

So the line that stands out to me every time says very simply
IN YOUR EYE'S I AM COMPLETE

So my first thought was that really girly romanticized soppy stuff of " Wow I wish I could say that" But we all know that is not possible.

As I pondered this thought further I thought about how God sees me. In the bible it says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made, God knit us together in our mothers womb.

If God put so much time and care into me then surely I am something special. We all are.

I may not be complete to anybody here on Earth and there are always things that I could do better. But I have also realized that I am who God made me and when you have been created by God complete or not, you can't really get any better than that.



Do you ever have those moments where you just want to scream............

Well I can officially say that after 4days 1 doctor visit and 1 hospital visit, having a 6yr old with the flu has brought me to not one of those moments but to many.

I am tired, I am grumpy and I really have had enough. I have not slept in 3 nights for more than 2hrs a night. I love my children with no limitations, but sick whinging children are really not my thing.

But I am trying to look and see what I can learn about myself through all this. Trust me it took a lot of looking, it was hiding pretty well. I am choosing to see that life when you are stuck home is really not so bad..... I need to take some time out and just be sometimes. I am very good at filling my life up with lots of stuff to avoid whatever I am trying to avoid at the time. I am not very good at just being still. God is also gently reminding me, with a brick to the head, that I need to stop relying on my own strength but get my strength from him.

Many people may not realise that I am a control freak. I am not good at handing things over to God and letting him do his thing. I am too busy trying to hold on to my stuff (ie smoking)and just giving him some of what I want him to have. The stuff when I really need him.

The other thing that God has highlighted to me is I need to have more faith in him. This came about through a conversation with Mikayla. She has been on Panadol every 6hrs for the past few days, tonight before she went to bed we were discussing the things she wanted me to pray about. At the end of her long list of requests ie. no more nose bleeds, no more vomiting etc she asked me to also pray that God would start to make the panadol taste nice and not disgusting anymore. I tried not to laugh and simply stated to her that I didn't think God would or even could do that. She looked at me as if I was nuts and said to me " Yes He Can!! He is God and he can do anything"

Nothing like a reminder from your 6yr old. I seem to remember it does state in the bible that we need to have faith like a child. So tonight I will pray about panadol and tomorrow we will see what happens.

We serve and almighty God who can do anything. From raising the dead to, I am sure, changing the taste of Panadol.



So I am doing the Blog thing again..................

I always end up doing this when I am some kinda weird contemplative, overthinking mood. Oh and at some Horrid hour where I am over tired. This evening that happens to be 11.30pm after having an almost 2yr old awake for most of the evening. She has now been asleep for about 30mins so here's hoping that's it for tonight.

So again Music has triggered my thoughts, if you haven't figured it out yet I am a huge music fan. Music triggers so much in me and I find some of it very thought provoking. The song of choice for the moment is "This is your life" by Switchfoot.

My amazing friend and mentor has asked me to think of 3 questions/areas in my life I want to develop so we can talk about it at our next coffee session. I have found this task incredibly difficult, but also I have had some interesting insights into me.

So during all this thinking I had a discussion with one of the girls from my uni and She just happened to mention that She was doing primary school teaching because She "wanted to make a difference" This is really the main reason I want to teach I want to make an impact on Children. I thought about this further and asked myself what kind of impact do i want to have?? What do I want my legacy to be??

Well I want to be a positive influence on our children because they are our future. I know it is a cliche but it is the truth. I want my legacy to be a generation of children who are confident, happy, balanced and most importantly totally in love with God. But I don't just want to impact children i want to impact people. I want to make a difference in peoples lives.

I have started asking myself the question what have I done today to make a difference for someone else? This is a new challenge, it involves getting out of my very comfortable selfish bubble and thinking about others. I want to start practicing random acts of kindness. I want to be an encourager and uplifter to others. It's amazing the difference you can make to someone by just a positive word.

So tying it back to my song that i started with the words are


Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be


I want to make a difference today because who knows what tomorrow will bring and if you will even have a tomorrow. We only have a short time on Earth to make a difference and an eternity in Heaven to rest. What impact are you going to have while you are here.

This is my life and I can officially and proudly say I am becoming who I want to be.

How about You????????