An ode to friends....

Ok so lately I have seen a few blogs dedicated to friends and the importance of friendship.

So i have decided to do a short post on the subject, yes I am a copy cat.

I have many people in my life whom I call friends, some are old some are new but all play a different role and help me in different ways. I am the type of person who needs people, those who know me well know I talk way too much and am always gas bagging.

So for those who know me and spend time with me, THANK YOU!!!!, each of you play a significant and unique role in my life.

I want to take the time though to honour 2 incredibly special people to me. I hope you all don't mind.


This is the beautiful, incredible amazing Tracey!!!

This is the girl who know most if not all of my secrets, and then loves and supports me anyways. I value and cherish her. She has wisdom in areas I do not, she has a strength of character that I learn from. She handles all of the challenges life throws at her (lately there have been a few) with such strength and determination while showing grace and mercy when it is needed. There is so much I can and do learn from her, she is a significant part of my life journey.


This is the stunning, wise and awesome Bec!!!!

This girl has been in my life for the past 14 years, yep that's right she has actually been a part of my journey for over 1/2 my life. She has challenged me and watched me grow, She will always tell me what I need to hear even when I do not want to hear it. She handles everything she does with such integrity and grace. She is honest and raw. She teaches me things about myself that I need to be taught. I love her like a sister.

So it is an honour to have both Bec and Tracey in my life, I am so glad the God had brought us together.

until next time
xx

An announcement..............

Ok just a quickie to let everyone know that, ok you may want to sit down,

MY HOUSE IS CLEANED!!!!!!!!!!!!

Those who read my blog regularly will know that this is has been a rather large issue for me of late.

There is a story behind how and why it got done, maybe I will share it one day and maybe I won't. The most important thing is that it is done.

Once I get past the exhaustion and get some sleep I am sure i will feel even better about it.

Until Next Time
xx

Food for thought.....

Ok this is just a really quick note

I made the best dinner tonight. It was so awesome!!!

We had spinach and ricotta cannelloni, well my version anyways. I am not sure how to really make it.

I am happy because this week in our house we have had more home cooked meals than take away and even though I felt exhausted I put the effort in.

Tracey has been talking to me a lot about food of late and I am starting to see that I need to make the change.

The one thing she has said to me, which has really challenged me is this: I can make whatever decisions I want about foods, good or bad and I have to live with the consequences of that. (and I do hence why I am so overweight I am classed as obese) My children on the other hand do not have the same power and choice that I do. I make those decisions for them and they have to live with the consequences. As their mother it is my responsibility to look after them the best I can and their diet and trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle is part of that. I mindlessly feed my kids without giving a second thought to what I am actually putting into their bodies and the affect that it could be having on them.

I have also read another friends blog this week and she has made some really interesting points, I urge all of you to take a quick look. http://louise-mumof3girls.blogspot.com/ I am slowly beginning to realise what is actually in foods, and that sometimes when we think we are doing the right thing we are actually not.

So anyways I am feeling challenged, and slowly trying to make changes. Hope this wasn't too boring.

Until next time
xx

Hope.....

Ok so I wrote this big post about being honest with myself and about where I was at etc. It has then been followed by 2 general posts about Christmas and new year etc.

This is another honesty post, nothing quite as heavy or depressing I promise, but feel free to switch off now if you'd like.

Truth, I am still in the same place with life sort of. I still feel overwhelmed by lots of things, but I also now feel like maybe I have some control over them. Not a lot mind you but some.

So let me fill you in on some stuff that has happened over the last few weeks. I have had my 20 week ultrasound, which was so fun. We all went as a family and saw the pictures of our new baby. Mikayla asked heaps of questions and was really interested in at all. Leyana was bored after 5 mins. I know that my baby is very happy and healthy in there and that the problems I had in early pregnancy have now gone and have righted themselves. YAY!!! I also Had a decent chat with my Husband, and although he really doesn't get how I feel (secretly I think he just thinks I am hormonally insane) he was open to hearing me. We spoke and he just kind of said to me that he was not putting any expectations on me, but maybe I could start just doing a room at a time, if that was too much just to do part of a room. So I have tried. I am not going to tell you my house looks fabulous because that would be a lie, but I have made a start. A dent in the chaos. I even cooked dinner 3 times this week. Some of you may be thinking this is not a big deal but for me it is. To come from the way I was feeling and how I felt like I could barley move to this is a big deal. I have done several washings this week and several hours ( i mean hours) of ironing. So there you go some of what has been happening.

I have a long way to go, I know this and I have lots to do, but I also feel like maybe there is an end to these feelings. That what not so long ago felt hopeless, there is some hope for. I sometimes struggle with the idea that because I am meant to be a christian, who knows her God, that I should not feel hopeless. Sometimes though the darkness seems so overwhelming that even though somewhere you know God is with you, you can lose sight of the light. I can say that I had lost sight of the light, I think I lost sight a long time ago , but was too busy perfecting the image to really notice what was going on. One thing I have realised through everything is this, I don't know my God. I know of him and I know who he is and what he does, but I do not KNOW him. I do not understand him or have revelation of him in my life.

I feel that to get me out of this darkness I need to start chasing the light. Stop sitting on my butt and expecting him to come to me but to actually start pursuing God.

So you see there is hope. I am beginning to feel it rising in me, slowly.

So until next time
xx

A new year.......

Ok so it's now officially 2009, I would like to know where 2008 went????

Now is the time for all those resolutions and things that we are going to do this year, to be honest I have none. I know there are certain things I would like to achieve but in all honesty I have no resolutions.




On a dif note, we had a fabulous new years eve.

Our day started at 8:30am when we packed up and left on our 2hr drive to Sovereign Hill. We had the best day, and I mean the best. It was so so so much fun. We panned for Gold (and found some), had a horse and cart ride, walked and walked made candles, went underground (where some of us freaked out a little) made peg dolls and just had such a fun family time.



I think this visit was a bit of an eye opener for Mikyala She was shocked to see that some whole families lived in a tent or room smaller that her bedroom.




So we got home at dinner time last night, changed and then went straight back out for New years celebrations. We ended up only going to my parents place. This was actually really good, coz it meant that my kids were in bed by 8:30. Yes I know what a horrible mum. Leyana slept well, Mikyala was still awake at midnight so she got up and celebrated with us. She had a boogie and was part of the tradition or superstition of being the first foot (this is a Scottish thing). I will explain, the first foot is the first person to come over your doorstep after midnight. With them they must bring Coal, Food, Drink and money. All of this meaning that you will always have warmth, plenty to eat and drink and money in your purse. I remember always being kicked out at 11:59 to be my Nanna's first foot when I was a child.

We had such a great night with awesome food and great family and friends.

So I am looking forward to many changes in 2009. And lots of new adventures.

Until next time
xx